I have come to realise that I am nice to everyone, but, if I feel that someone is getting in the way of realising my ambitions, I will be resentful towards them. Though, I should talk to them about not getting in the way of my ambition.
This is not a problem with people outside my family. I realised this whole time that I have treated my mother, brother, and sister poorly because they unintentionally traumatised me in my college days when I was recovering from a traumatic high school experience. They were trying to help me get past college, even though I didn't ask for their help and things always get worse when they try to help me when I don't ask for it. It was my fault for not communicating properly with them.
The thing is, I want a better relationship with them, but, sometimes, they do things that remind me of the trauma they caused and I feel angry towards them.
I love them, but, I have no desire to speak to them, call them, have a conversation with them, go out with them, or share anything with them about my life.
It will take time for me to get over this, but, I will not let this affect me anymore.
This is not a problem with people outside my family. I realised this whole time that I have treated my mother, brother, and sister poorly because they unintentionally traumatised me in my college days when I was recovering from a traumatic high school experience. They were trying to help me get past college, even though I didn't ask for their help and things always get worse when they try to help me when I don't ask for it. It was my fault for not communicating properly with them.
The thing is, I want a better relationship with them, but, sometimes, they do things that remind me of the trauma they caused and I feel angry towards them.
I love them, but, I have no desire to speak to them, call them, have a conversation with them, go out with them, or share anything with them about my life.
It will take time for me to get over this, but, I will not let this affect me anymore.