Oh dear! Thank you all very much for your good blessings!
In the meantime things are looking much more positive. We both had a single session with the mentor last week to find out many things about ourselves. We're now going to start the relationship counselling with sessions every few weeks. This will become a long journey with open ending but in the end we'll both agree into the outcome (let's hope the best).
Since we both know we want to go for it, our behavoir has already changed, because we don't look back but forward. So life feels better now.
Now the bad news:
From the time before the crisis became true, it was clarified with our jobs that we'll have holiday next week. Considering the very new situation we decided to give our son to his grandparents end to have a short trip on our own for the first time since he was born. That's a thing we're both very much looking forward to.
So unfortunately I'll miss the next race, too.
There's a very, very small chance, we start the trip on thursday morning, so there's a tiny possibility I could race on wednesday. But it's not very likely. Hope you understand that choice.
I'll give my best for the rest of the season to even make it the best I've ever had. Be aware I'll come back in very good conditions.