Of course there is more to it than that but, in my opinion, there is nothing positve to be gained through further explanation.
It has been obvious that you have been growingly unhappy for many seasons. I think if you had spoken out in the first place about what/who you were unhappy about/with there's a chance you would not be wanting to leave. But you never did, you are always vague about with what and especially with whom and write a lot "between the lines". Even when having read all your posts the last 5 years it is hard to understand. If I was to guess though, I would think that one of the problems is that you understanding of the relationship between practice, skills and pace needs to be recalibrated, something that the quote below illustrates:
I admit that finding myself 5 seconds off the pace in Q was not very encouraging. Considering it was only a fun race, what will happen when the quick guys practice?
I think you were the only driver on track that had not prepared for the race prior to the event. I "knew" you would be slow because I experienced myself how slow I was after 1 hour with practice (slower than you). Those super fast ailiens have all put in a fair bit of practice which is highly rewarded when one are new to both car and track. Sure they are more skilled/talented than probably you but especially me, that's probably why they are motivated to put in that extra practice. Being comfortable with the idea that
I am not the most skilled, nor do I practice the most, therefore I cannot expect to keep the same pace as the fastest, I think is key to enjoying a race other places than the front of the grid.
i think you Peter, are probably somewhere around 3rd-8th when it comes to skills/talent, while you are close to the bottom end when it comes to practice. Nothing wrong with that, on the contrary, you are skilled enough to deliver a strong race almost without practice, that is what many of us aim for
When one misread the relationship between practice, skill and pace, one look towards talent/skills, safety vs. competitiveness, white line rule, setup secrets and other things to explain this difference in pace.
Please consider refinding your motivation Peter, you have allowed yourself to go down a spiral where you only see the negative, but the fact is that you are one of our best and most dependable drivers in proabably one of the most open, honest and friendly leagues in the world, a league you started with Jim, Vincenzo and me (and others that have left) 5 years ago. Sure there are small differences in how drivers interpret safety vs. competitiveness, white line rules etc. but that is only natural for a league with drivers of all ages, cultures and nationalities. Considering that, I think we are a very homogeneous group.
Also, does it not count for something that not one single person in the league wants to see you go? Quite a lot will be very sad by the fact, including myself. You are very wanted by everybody in the league Peter, although we might not show it often enough. And if I write more now, I will probably do as David, question my sexuallity
